The part after graduation and when you actually land a job is a journey that for some is long and for some is short. I studied to learn. I learned that I am in love with what I am learning. I want more. I want a job and I want it so I can continue learning and continue loving what I passionately do. But for me this journey hasn’t ended yet. It’s still happening. And I am tired. It’s been almost two years since I finished from university. I didn’t find a graphic design job, I only had a few freelance projects. But I am not tired only from all the searching. And apart from the constant disappointement and then getting back up again, there are things that I need to resolve with myself. I am at this point of my life when most of my friends are living a whole different life from me. Jobs, relationships, moving out, moving in with their boyfriends and girlfriends. I am mostly at the same spot I was before. And those two years I feel like I am blank. Sometimes, I don’t feel as alive as I should be. There is a void. I ask myself “How was those past 2 years?”. And there will be a long pause in the beginning and then I will find some memories that are good, but they can’t fill this void.

I wasn’t just waiting these years. I was searching for jobs. I was freelancing. I was working at different jobs for the summer seasons but they were just bad years. And I am tired of waiting. I know what I want. I want to live somewhere in France or Spain or Italy, but prefferably in France. I want to get there. Ofcourse I want a job that I would like but I would do anything until that moment arrives. Now the problem is that I’m stuck in my hometown. Money yes it is a big problem but if I wait to have enough money to leave, it will never happen. I want to reconnect with myself. I want to feel like me again. I want to have fun one summer. I want to work and feel good about it. I want some time off. Time off of the pressure I’ve put myself into.

So I took a decision. I started searching for ways that can get me out of here. Well a job is the obvious way but it’s not easy and it hasn’t happened for me yet. Plan B. Volunteering. After researching I came across the Workaway website. People host other people in their homes in exchange of some work in many things such as renovation, gardening, festival preparation, schooling, languages, childcare and many more. So I was searching for many days and the idea seemed good, so I signed up a few days ago. It would be dreamy if I could go somewhere and do my thing (graphic design stuff) although I wouldn’t mind anything else. So first step is to find people who want help with this. And I am so excited already. I am trying not to show it so it won’t be bad luck as it always happens. I already feel better. I can see it happening and I know that when I do this, it might be the beginning of something bigger!